Despairing.

Washington County Historical Society version (1965)¹

Nov. 17 – This uncertainty is terrible. The women are despairing.

The Arkansas Historical Quarterly version (1947)²

Nov. 17

This uncertainty is unbearable. We women are in despair.

1. Lemke, W. J. The Hermanns of Old Hermannsburg: Washington County, Arkansas. Fayetteville, AR: Washington County Historical Society, 1965.
2. Memoirs, Letters, and Diary Entries of German Settlers in Northwest Arkansas, 1853-1863.  Selected and Translated By Clarence Evans, Tahlequah, Oklahoma. The Arkansas Historical Quarterly. Vol. VI Fall, 1947 No. 3