April, Monday 4, 1864<\/p>\n
The days now passing are of so much paine and unhappiness to me, it is with the greatest difficulty I can have patience at night to make a record of my sad life. The weather today as gloomy as my feelings\u2014cold and drizzling. Anna Nelson spent the morning, I went in to sit with her, did not stay long\u2014oh! for happiness and peace\u2014there is no love or sympathy for me there. I did not sit in the Parlor long after Tea\u2014Father retired early\u2014Laura and Bettie had a very good lesson\u2014Laura now deep in slumber. Tippie Dora in bed asleep, but my poor Beulah, alas, the best of friends must part\u2014I am alone, all alone, there is a mournful spell in the heart echo of that simple word, even when it bounds through the warm blood of youth!\u2014I have thought until my brain feels like a burning fire\u2014it is 1 o’clock, yet where is sleep or rest for my weary spirit\u2014oh! heavenly Father, have I not suffered enough\u2014remove this trouble, and if I am not humble then return it to me. Oh! try me once again, bless me and brighten my hopes\u2014and guide and lead me in the paths of Righteousness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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